Hoping For The Best But Expecting The Worst

how come!? after everything you put me through , i dont hate you. the truth is i think im in love you. firstly, you put me through alot and made half the city hate me. youre really bipolar. one jam youre all like besties with me, the next you make fun of me and ignore me. like recently you embarrassed me in front of a bunch of hot guys! like urghhh. i dont even know anymore! .but i know for a fact you hate me and think im a fat ugly bitch and taht you will never be with me. ive liked you for over an year and a half now. i still remember the day i met you and what you and i wore. i remember the first words, i remember our first convo. i remember our first hug and our first fight. i remember our first make up, our first look.now we dont even talk, we “hate” each other. you liked my best friend while you were leading me on. i felt like such a dumbass when i found out.ive tried liking other guys and tried convincing myself that i like them but i dont, i never will. but even if we went out, my parents wouldnt approve. my dad thinks youre horrible. i hate how everyone considers you beat as hell and hates you. i honestly think youre amazing but youll never know that casue im a fag that will complain about this on tumblr.i want you and if i tell you how i feeel, youll tell everyone. youre not really the trustworthy type though. but the funny thing is, we never even went out or were an item. but honestly, i love you and i cant picture myself with  anyone else

so my friends made plans without me.. thanks “besties” but why am i surprised? its not the first time. im the one who brought you close and now you dont even want to invite me. you can suck my dick. all you do is make me feel like shit. 

But like honestly,why are you lying? You couldve just said i cant go since shes still here. No need to make up bullshit how your mom isnt letting you go. Honestly what kind of friend are you??? Or should i say friends. The funny thing is you think youre not gonna get caught and that im still gonna be bffs with you. You know what no. Im sick of you,actually ALL of you fake fuckers

LOL k! so you decide to go shopping and not invite me? what kind of friends are you seriously? a month ago you were saying how much you hate this girl and how shes such a bitch and how shes replacing me? KKKKK! i can already tell by ottawa, i wont be even rooming with you guys, since she has the need to replace me in EVERYTHING! really? we were best friends, we were a crew. what the fuck happen? honestly, i cant wait to make new friends cause the only thing you guys are good at is making me feel like pure shit ! youre all fake bitches and amazing at ruining peoples lives. i have no friends. while you are living your amazing ,fun lives, take some time to think of me and remember how close we were